Done and done...Maybe

I have hurt people. I will continue to hurt people, be it in words or actions. Not everyone will understand me or what issues i may or may not have. I get that. I understand that my writing style is not for everyone and i know i need a thicker skin. I can't be sad and hurt when someone i care about ghosts me or drops out of my life. I AM A WRITER!

With that said it's not easy being an indie writer. I want to make people happy but i also need to look at things from a sales persons viewpoint too. I loved the Cover that Grey Cross did for me. I printed it out and framed it even, but in the end i went with a cover photo that would work better when trying to sell the book. Who knows if someday i will get picked up by a publishing house and they will want to make even more changes. No. I will not let anyone turn Zakk into Zoey or Daniel into Danielle. My boys are not getting a sex change.

Am I 100% happy with the cover? Probably not but sometimes you need to just go with the flow and be done with it. I took ten years to finish it and a few more to get the cover done and get it print ready and online. I need to move on to book 2. I need to push the first kid out the door and wave as it toddles down the street into the unknown. I need to stop worrying about what others think of it and just be happy that i created this world and these people that will hopefully resonate with others.

I am not Poppy, or king or Rice. I am me and i can only continue to make my own heart sing with the creations that come from my messed up brain and onto the page. I don't feel like a writer, although it gets easier all the time to say it out loud to strangers. So off i go to try and not pull my hair out of my head as i try and get back into that space with the limited time i have to write.

Stay spooky friends!!

JMR